im so mad at myself for acting like a dumbass with the others up there... now all of the survivors i

im so mad at myself for acting like a dumbass with the others up there... now all of the survivors i find chase me away from their pods... man, if you knew how hard they were swearing... they tried to scratch me... and im just saying to myself: "okay, im sorry. for fucks sake, do you realize that currently every life matters? theres no room for hurting and killing each other.". i wish i was a better person... its my own fault.